this post is all about

Another Post again =]

Hope you won't get bored .. and i hope
my Supaahh Old Computer will not
die on me ..


I've been dying here in our house
since I'm alone here, My computer system
is not in good condition all i am doing is
to sleep that turns into headache
Poor me :[


I want to do something Productive
but staying at home sit properly talking to myself
is the best way to do for now .. hehe
So while waiting for miracle, I just realized that
Ohkaayyy.. This is Serious .. so prepare tissue
crumple it and throw it to me after hoho
peace .. this is it


I just realized that After all what happened
and actually It is happening
I've realized that While i am Protecting someone
while i was thinking for his/her feelings
While i was putting a lot of Concern about his/her situation
While i was thinking is all of him/her

There is a lot of people i Left behind
I prioritized someone who did not
care about my feelings
While there is people who Prioritized
me and i just throw it away

I just Learn today that
Life is not Unfair..
Sometimes It was Destined to happened
and Sometimes It was you who are Unfair..


I think I should put my Priority
to those people who love me even at my worst
who love me even they know their not expecting
anything in return.


You Guys Deserve a lot of love =]

Forgive me hihi I will surely
make bawi to you .. all of you
Yay I'm so maarte =]


~
So Cold, Free Hugs anyone ?

Yo Jan


NOTE:
THIS POST SHOULD BE POST LAST NIGHT
BUT UNFORTUNATELY MY COMPUTER DIE ON ME
Grrrrrr ! I'm wishing for a new one
lolsx :D

non sense so don't read

I Miss This .. Yes this ..
sitting on my throne typing my most
mushy things happened to my Life :)

Before Posting this, I read my Previous
Entry .. and i was errr why am i so Emo?
Was that really me? As i Observed i post
a lot of Bad things happened to me .. aw sad..


If your asking why it took ages
since my last post .. It is because of
loads of dramatic scenes happened
well.. Don't worry I'm still stick to my beliefs
is that beliefs? I blog for myself .. Not for Everyone..


what's the Point of this Post ..

I just want to have a quick Recap what
happened this last week ..

Last Monday October 26 2009
Early Morning :

We Went to school to get my Grades
oh..... Shhh.. Don't... Don't dare to ask
how's my grades .. Their Fine :D
hehe
Around 12 noon

We "my high school friends"
went to our old School [St. Jude]
to visit and Eaaaaattt ! rarw ! :D
their celebrating the School Fiesta
so there's a lot of food haha ..

Afternoon up to Night :]

We had our drinking Session at
MJ's House .. It's fun .. we were
enjoying the bonding we missed for about
half year .. sad :{

~
I took the chance to talked
to two of my guy friends ..
and i had one serious talking with them
*I will not post whatever we talked about
cause i forgot all of it haha .. ;] srsly I still protecting someone..

But for you
You made this Decision, don't worry
I'm trying to Understand the Situation
Just remember this.. You made what we are now ;]


For You my friend :]
Thanks for listening to me
Super thanks You deserve a lot of love
you know who you are .. First dance *wink!


Last Thursday October 29

We had an Overnight Swimming Party
at Postema ..
Thanks to Sir Marvin and Sir Garcia
for giving us a lot of FOODS ! =]

It was Fun ... It was really really Fun
but it's hard not to be close to you .. *sigh!


>> NOTE: It is hard not to be close to you
because were living on a same circle of friends


.. This post make non sense
sorry for wasting your Time :]




Yo Jan
is sleepy :[ Good Day guys

A MUST READ :)

howwwkei guys, Yea i know this is a blog an Online Journal/Diary
anything i upload here has a 99.9%
chance that one of you. Yes you my friends!! will read it..

To my dear Reader/Readers (READERS !!TWO OR MORE ARE MANY,RIGHT? RIGHT! )
You guys don't know what kind of face you give to me * @__@ [OW YEAH LIKE THIS ONE]
everytime you say .. "Ui Jan nabasa ko blog mo" "Ui i read ur blog" "Jan ganda ng blog mo" "Nice Blog" JAN PABASA NG BLOG MO :)
I feel the importance the curiosity the Care the love everytime
you read this blog :) This blog Contains alot of Mushy things
and shit loads of my life that's why I'm thankful for the patience you put on this
Especially to the Grammars and Errors .. haha !

well I'm not talking about the Grammars and Errors


I put alot of Sugarcoat on this post so.. Stop!! Let's go STRAIGHT to the POINT

~ Now You know *grin,familiarized on manny "PACMAN" PACQUIAO famous quotes*

Now that you know HOW THANKFUL I AM WITH YOU GUYS, FOR PUTTING SOOOOO MUCCHHH EFFORT
READING MY BLOG .. BUT GUYS PLEASE .. PLEASE I'M BEGGING FOR
THE CONSIDERATION AND THE RESPECT .

If you notice Everytime i post "Sensitive" topic
i always make sure I'm not taking only my side
I make sure that when i post it , The SENSITIVENESS of that
topic is Done. It was settle and Case Close
I'm just protecting the person who was involve with the topic .

So please pay Respect, I'm glad
your interested with my life,
with what happened/happens
to me . It's so great to know that.. :)
but guys be careful in every words you say
There might be people get affected especially in their
Private Life

ok, i hope you got my point :)

P.S- Do confront me , talk to me if you want
CHISMIS :) for the Confirmation , for Clarification and the Likes
VIOLENT REACTION are much entertain hhehe :)

SUPER THANKS FOR THOSE WHO READ THIS
BLOG .. MUCH LOVE FOR YOU GUYS

~YOJAN :)

He made a good Decission

I might the one who gave the most joy to him
but i can't give the most love he deserve .

Last few months may balita
na kumakalat haha ! . ganto kase yun
July 16 i think that was friday
this "something" was Officially yes, Officially
Out. hay hirap



Being Admire or Adore by someone
is always been a pleasure
he's cute he's kind he's gentleman and he's one of the
girls dreamboy.


He likes me, i like him too
he has a girl friend and ........


Recap: this guy is
my former classmate and still
one of my best guy friend
he likes me even before he had a GF
but he didn't know that i knew what's his feeling for me
He likes this girl at naguguluhan sya kung
liligawan nya ba talaga un.
pake ko naman d'b? but i was one guilty bitch
cause he's distracted of me
*evil laugh* i don't do anything TRUST ME
I'm INNOCENT. :D
so this year i guess i made my good decision ever
since he didn't know i knew everything
i worked things clean and green hehe

I Let him to feel that
this Girl *yeah not me*
is a perfect catch .. i help him
to realized that this girl is the one
who he really loved the most .
*Insert Church song here plus Put halo on my head*

*don't worry this comes from reliable source*

We had a meet-ups as a group
Since everyone is Busy doing nothing ^^
we took the chance
to talked things out..

*sneek* The Untold Feeling has been Revealed
were drunk
but i know and i felt that conversation is not an alcohol talking
i felt happy once again, cause i know after he Officially open it up to me
that will also the closure of everything
we talked a lot, we also shared some secrets
we Cherish everything like it will never happen once again
Cause we know after this Night we woke up
and back to reality .
that Night is Enough , It's my Very first time
to heard him Laugh like shit .. as in
he's a quiet and mysterious type kind of guy
so everything at that Night is a Surprise ..
SETTINGS:
WE WERE JUST TALKING
the rain fall so sad .. plus the A VERY SPECIAL LOVE
song playing on my mp4 *i was the one who heard it* ]
sweet revelation .. sweet farewell
After he opened it up i know that will also be the Closure
*nod*


That's so i thought
After 1month *i think*

when we were having our Reunion
i just heard he cried because of me
Naguguluhan na naman sya .
Mahal nya si GF pero Gusto nya ko
Hindi na sya masaya kay GF at ako na ang
Nagpapasaya sakanya .

One of my Closest Friend says "I was the one who Bring out His Best"

urgh. The first thing comes up to my mind
was .. What the hell i did ?
we never talked for a month how could
these thing happened ?


I always feel happy when someone
appreciates me. hindi lang naman siguro
ako pati rin ikaw d'b ?


But this time i felt nothing
i was worried with him
This guy is a good catch. he is really !
I am Attracted with him and that's just it
i don't have any romantic feelings with him
siguro kase yung mga kaibigan ko eh , i pictured
them as a Family to me ..

we talked about that
and he said : Totoo lahat yon
at Pag iisipan ko ng Mabute [pag iisipan kung sino ba talaga same ni Gf ang pipiliin nya]

After he said those things
i suddenly felt sad
Iniisip nya ba na may inaasahan ako after that
Revelation ?

~ Honestly
Never ko inisip na Magiging kame after
he spill the beans
this might sounds freaky but
I'm not a good choice
not because that girl is much prettier than me
Rawr! I might the one who gave the most joy to him
but i can't give the most love he deserve .


And this last Saturday 09/12/09
we met and i admit
I'm slightly hurt , i can't talked to
him as casual as it's need to be
I Can't look to his eyes
cause i know he made his decision
I know and it's Obvious He choose her


gawd ! why i feel like shit?
I'm happy .. Yes i am . Trust me
i'm Lying haha !

kidding aside

whatever his decision is I'll still be here for
you ..








Smooches Jan ^~

Hell Week

Hell week in School >.<

Midterm ! Grrrrr !
Pano na kaya to . Kailangan maipasa
kung hindi . Lagot uuwi ate ko
sa October . And October is releasing of Grades
NYAY ! :(




Food Sanitation-Wednesday 04:00-5:30
Com Arts-Thursday 04:00-5:30
Tourism/ICT/P.E.- Friday
Math/JPL- Sept 24 nyay !






smooches Jann ^~

This photograph is proof

Finally after the long lazy days
i finally finished well not much Sprucing up my Blog
** this is not anymore Happiness Is a Choice *nod*
why ? hmm ..because uhmm

, Life is a matter of Choice, and you can really choose
what makes you happy but there are moments you need to
Suffer your own happiness for the sake of the happiness of others .. oh well your loved ones precisely


Stop with that prologues

This Photograph is Proof .. where did i got that ?
hmm ... honestly i got it from a song, sung by
Taking back Sunday a rock band . There's no related
with my personal beliefs regards to this blog .
i just like it . it sounds very well
and I'm one lazy cat to type all the happenings
pass through my days so in just one shot I can
share my experience clearly to you guys :)
Pictures are evidence , it's a proof



hope it will last :]



i had a lazy day but not much proud of it
it's raining and it's cold plus midterm
is coming Yikees ! but before stu-dying
i will have some pamper time for me myself and I
plus it's an award for being so busy groggy stressed
this last few weeks.


Last Thursday ....

It's a win Thursday
i met a friend at school auditorium he's Archie
we have the same craft [?] it's because
of Japanese invasion
He really love Japanese culture especially Girls i bet !
haha ! I'm not that fanatic as he is
i just love watching cosplay, reading manga, Noodles
Jpop, and their Fashieeeennn
the Good News is he know the song
i've been searching for a month
He's a great Day maker :D



More Exciting Funny Mushy post
to come =}



Good Luck Mid Term
wish me a very good luck ^^






smooches Jancaholic

tourbic

Last August 30-31 we went to Subic
for an Educational Tour

Masaya.Boring.Masaya =]When 112 joins 109 ! Prefek ! ang saya tuloy ng Bus namen
ang Innnnnngggaaayyyy ! Salamat sa Green Utak namen niahaha !

Wala lang hindi ko feel masyado
eto naman kaseng mga teachers grabe
kung makapag describe ng Hotel !
kung ano yung nakikita sa T.V yun yung
pina pa Imagine nila samen ..

Nakooo . Eh ang Luma
parang may moo moo
parang Ospital .


Pero Enjoy sa Ocean Adventure
It's a must to visit that Place
lalo na yung mapanuod yung mga Kyuut na
Dolphine whoa it feels you like to have it on your house
Nyahay as if we have pool to put that on it

The first time i saw them .. i was really mesmerized with their beauty behavior
plus their talent .. ^^ Yikees ! i really want to see more of them :(

Aren't they Cool ? hmmmm

SUBIC IS IN OLONGAPO
AT NAPANSIN KO LANG NA
THERE'S NO PUBLIC TRANSPO
DRIVING AROUND EVEN TAXI
NYAY ! IT'S MY FIRST TIME TO GO TO
THAT PLACE AT YUN LANG NAMAN NAPANSIN KO
PURO COMPANIES , PURO PABRIKA , PRIVATE CARS
AT HALOS MAYAYAMAN AT KANO ANG NAKA TIRA DUN

NO WONDER ALMOST ALL OF THE PEOPLE
IN GAPO ARE BEAUTIFUL .

It's uhmm don't know he's name,Brian,ME!,Lyann,peter,Bebs,Ysay,Angel
at Ocean Park .. Grool !

Leander,Me!,Reggy,angel,Ysay,Neil
Nyahaha ! looks like were on some teaser of Teleserye
Yay! it's actually at the lobby of the hotel hmmm ..

You already knew them evcept of this one little cute Arian ! she's/he's our new
found friend she's also Lycean same degree of course.. She's really really
naughty noisy and witty .. :]

Me at the don't know where is it .. haha I'm trying to scared the fish
Failed. i was the one who was scared of their BIG ! BIG ! eyes

some of my Classmates ^^ at Cabayan ResortTrying to make a bubbles ..

Top:krinkrin? jeans:penshoppe Boots:Thrift shop
scarf:maldita ;]Guess who's with me :)
I'm with chika babe she seems
enjoying the ride ^^ hehehe

smooches Jan

AN EMOOO

JAN WONDER WHY SHE ALWAYS HOOKED UP WITH GUYS WHO LOVE ANIME INVOLVES IN BAND AND ESPECIALLY WHO REALLLLLLLLYYYY LOVE TO HAVE AN EMO-MENTS THEY EASILY GET YOUR ATTENTION BUT WHY DO ALL "IN GENERAL" OF THIS ANIME/vocx/guitarist/ GUYS HAVE THIS emo-ment soo often ....?




WHY ? OH WHY !




I'm not a saint nor their savior of their dark world, I might help them to lighten up their feelings but why they take things soooo Exaggerated ? C'mmon People !



anyway


MINI MONSTER IS BACK AND KICKING !
^_____^ this one made my day ! :}
Mini munstorrr !




Roar !






smooches jan

hooooraaaayyyy !

THERE THIS GIRL WHO REALLY SURPRISED ME ..
as in really !




I RECEIVED THIS MESSAGE FEW MINUTES
BEFORE POSTING THIS ...








OHMYGOOOOODDD!! ANG CUTE MO ..
NYEK ! HEHE .. WELL SYEMPRE
OVERWHELMED MAY NAKAKA APPRECIATE
ESPECIALLY BABAE ANG NAG SABE ..
NO BOLA AT ALL COMPARED TO GUYS DHEEBA ?!

*EVIL.GRIN*


I CLICKED IT BACK TO HOME PROFILE
THEN THADDDAAHH I SAW A BULLETIN
THAT CAUGHT MY ATTENTION
IT WROTE LIKE THIS "COCO JAN:) COCO JAN :)
wee THAT'S MHE ! a message for me !

AND IT SAID
"WEEE SIH CRUSH ANG CUTE :)"



I WAS LIKE ...
UHHH .. OHHHH ...
IS SHE OK ?


I GOT CURIOUS I DIDN'T KNOW
WHO SHE IS ..SO I CLICKED TO SEE HER
PROFILE .. BUT I WAS SURPRISED !!!
SYAKKKKKSSSSS ! OH MHAYYYYYYY GHOOOOOODDDD !
WHAT IS THIS ?!

DID YOU SEE ?! DID YOU ?!
THAT'S ME ! :?
IN MY MOST HAGGARDNESS LOOK
TIP: IF YOU USE MY PIC AS YOUR BACK GROUND
PLEASE DO BROWSE FOR MORE PICS RIGHT IN THAT
PHOTO CORNER .. KAKA GISING KO LANG KAYA NYANNNNN !

NAHH KIDDING :}
HINDI PA YAN .

she made me as one of her Featured Friends
Yikkeees ! :)

PLUS !!!

SHE MADE AN ALBUM WITH ALL MY
SHEEZEE PHOTOS .. AND IT NAMED AS
"SIH CRUSH"


I WAS KINDA THANKFUL.OVERWHELMED AND SCARED ?
I DON'T KNOW WHY HEHE



AND FEW WEEKS AGO ..
SOMEONE USED MY NAME IN HER
FRIENSTER ACCOUNT
I KNOW SHE KNEW WHAT MY NAME IS
I'M PRETTY SURE ABOUT THAT ..
.. MANY OF YOU THINK
"PARA NAMANG IKAW LANG MAY PANGALAN NA GANYAN"
AKO LANG NAMAN ATA ANG MAY PANGALAN NA
MA. JAN LOURD ..
C'MMON
MY NAME IS UNIQUE .. UHMM WEIRD AT THE SAME TIME HEHE
ILANG MONTHS NARIN NAMAN KO NALAMAN YUN
AT FIRST SHE USED CHUMZ/CHUMPOII
NOTE: INDEARMENT NAMEN ANG CHUMZ/CHUMPOII
NG BEST FRIEND KO.
I DID'NT OWN THAT WORD. BUT SHE CONSISTENTLY VIEW
MY PAGE AS WELL AS MY BEST FRIEND'S PAGE
I FORGAVE HER FOR THAT TEEHEE ^^


BUT THIS MONTH LANG NI VIEW NYA ULI AKO
AND THIS TIME SHE TOTALY COUGHT MY ATTENTION
SHE USED MY NAME !
CHUMZ [JAN LOURD]
HOW IRONIC IS THAT .. WHERE IN EARTH DID SHE
KNEW?GET? THAT NAME ?!
DID YOU SEE ? IT'S SPELL THE SAME.. PERFECT !


SO I ASKED HER
ME: WOW ! KAPANGALAN BA KITA ?
GALING NAMAN ,
THEN YUNG CHUMZ .. INDEARMENT NAMEN
YUN NG BEST FRIEND KO .. HEHE
SHE: bkt ayw mu b ?


NYEK !


SINCE I WAS BORN .. I DID'NT HEARD ANY
PERSON WHO LIKE/SAME AS MINE
IT'S ALWAYS JHON LORD, JOHN LORD, LORD JHON.





HMMMM ... SHOULD I BE HAPPY FOR THAT ?
ARE THEY OK ? c'mmon





Yes naman ! may
Fans Club nako hahahaha !







smooches
Ma. Jan Lourd
*wenk!

Hush Blush

You can never .. Uhmm i think you can
Imagine how Happy i am ^__________^
did you see ? did you see ?



Well it's just an ordinary school Tuesday
or so i thought
Morning we had an ordinary class
i am sick i have colds and cough but i still
had an energy to finish those class until ..... WINK!

EYES HERE ! Lyceum Photography Club
Will have a meeting at 4:00 pm J209
ATTENDANCE IS A MUST !!!!


hUWAT !????! NO, I CAN'T
I'M TOO HAGGARD TO FACE MY CRUSH
WELL FOR ALL OF YOU KNOW I JOINED
THAT ORGANIZATION JUST TO SEE MY CRUSH
HEHE ! BUT I DO REALLY WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT
PHOTOGRAPHY :)


HERE'S THE STORY


I'M SUUUUPEER BORED WITH WHAT
THEY DISCUSSING , IT'S ABOUT THE RULES
AND REGULATION ABOUT THE ORG.
SO I DECIDED TO DRAW .. Uhh draw ?
since my crush is seated at the back
i got my pen and paper to start ruining the paper
hehe but Na ahhhh ! it turns good :D really ! yeah maybe for me

1 and a half hours are over
we discuss what we need to be discussed
and it's time to go hooooomeee yee ! It's
my moms birth day so i really need to go home early

But wait !

Our President announce for those
who know how to use Photoshop will
stay .. Hehe since *ehem I'm a Frustrated artist
I stay ... Whoooo Whattaa Pachyderm haha !

It feels good, when you are surrounded with people
who knows your Craft .. Right ? Right !
ehem ! what Craft am i saying ? crap!


Our president ate Dawn
group us to 3.. too bad i'm group 1
and my crush is group 2 .. ;__;
but hey there this guy, he's also a member and
we always have an eye contact when we see
each other. there's watchhhaaa !! nyii !
I do felt he is making an effort just to say any
single word to start a conversation
or am i just assuming ..?

But anyway whatever it is
He's my Groupmate He look at me
and i know he knew what my group no. is
and since he's an officer he voluntarily
went to my group ... Or am i just Assuming ....?
But what about those Eye Contact ?

It's almost 5:30 pm the air condition was need to turn it off
so i use the paper where i drew doodle monsters
just a couple of minutes
This guy .. Uhhhkeii He's IAN !!
Ian borrowed it and he was smiling like
Uhmmm .. Amaze with what i did
hehe ! he's asking alot of questions .. Related to my
Drawing ... huh drawing ? haha !

Our President Gave each group a task
before she gave it , we made a Slogan
I don't know what to wrote .. But Ian got the
slogan through my drawing ... well it's not a drawing
i did wrote it. it's a lyrics of a song it's "Every Little Thing He Does is Magic"
we was just laughing out loud ..

Until Our work/paper is one of the choices
He let me explained it .. and after those shit speech
i saw my crush applauding at me ... What The ?!
I was like .. is this ... is this true ?
Can anyone slap me ?

After the meeting , I let Ian draw at my paper
with name date and signature ahaha !
It just mean that were officially friends
NOTE: Ian is not my Crush huuuukeeii ?!
he's just one of my crush's friend..
After that, i met JC but i prefer to call him Ryuki
he's an anime guy .. I like him maybe we will be a very good friend
hehehe ! While i was walking and turn to my side
i see Ian Ryuki Aaron[uhh i'm not sure with his name]
and my Crush walking Beside me ... !!!!!!


I was like ... *blush* is this true ?
heheheh ! he really look like CoCo Martin
if you know him .. :)



I had a very wonderful Day :)




smooches Jan :)

Otaku TaiiKii !!!!

I'm Starting to Spruce up my BLOG !
YEY ! to me !!!!! ^^

Their Gorgeous, Right?Right!

Yeniwey ! < style="font-weight: bold;">And When There is Cosplay There is Alodia !!!!!!!

wa. I really really want to see her ! God knows
I want to meet her as well her sister Ashley *tears*

For those who didn't know who they are
They are the most popular Cosplayer here in
the Philas. Cosplay is short for Costume Roleplay
Where you can portray the anime you like [manga.video games.comic books]

I'm not a Cosplayer even if i want to .
It's too expensive and it's a bit far from my place
where Conventions was held*poor me*

But this two gosienfiao sister's mesmerize me
Uh La La .. They are both Beautiful inside and out
They are both came from Ateneo .
ash is in her junior yr.I always read their journals which i felt i'm also part of their lives
I'm a good stalker i guess haha !


To meet them is one of my Dreams !!
Esp. on my 18th birthday hehe
Yuuuuuknow ! Meet and Greet
Alodia: Hi Jan Happy 18th birth day
Ashley: Happy Birthday !!! Jan !
Alodia and Ash : *hugs and Kiss*
Jan : *surprised*Oh hi hello Thanks for coming
ROFLMAO !!! In my Dreams !

But i want to .. I'm begging to meet them
yanno looks like an avid fan hoho !
that's the only gift i can give to myself
aside from improving my maturity and
controlling myself to spend sooo much haha !
^^ ohhh .. Phulleeezzee



Why am i sad ?
It's Otaku Taikii right at this Very moment, minutes, second !
and it's very sad to think that it's just 2hour way ride to the event
sad Fact is I don't have enough money ! *tears* where in the last week of the month and it's the last drop of my allowance . Check This out ! Http://Alodiagosiengfiao.com Http://Orangeish.Deviantart.com

I failed but i Count @___@

Once again i Failed .
This day should be the day for my Blog
yeah right , i should renovate renew refresh
this, but laziness visit me
09:00 am i woke up i turn on the switch
i log in to Facebook just to visit my farm YaY!*add me*
i don't know where the hell i should start
my mind weren't working... dunno what to do

Until my group mates call for a meeting
Yikeeess ! It's official i Failed .



^~

at this very moment , Oh no
5 minutes before posting this my friend Angel [my twin]
text me and she said "twin pagod nako " twin ang saket saket"
twin ayoko na "
hmmm ... Sounds like damn Familiar

ohhhhh .. It's me ! 2 days ago ..

I pity her so i gave my warmest advice
but i stopped , Pano ako magbibigay ng Advice
Kung sarili ko hindi ko Mabigyan ...?

Kung kahit ako andun ako sa
pinagdadaanan nya.. Pagod din ako Nasasaktan din ako
Nag sasawa narin ako .. Anung magandang sagot mabibigay ko
sakanya ...?


Kaya isa lang nasabi ko

Twin kakagaling ko lang dyan 2 days ago
at hanggang ngayon andyan parin ako ...
Hindi ko narin Kaya, Pagod narin ako Pero KAILANGAN nating
KAYANIN para sa mga taong HINDI KAKAYANIN tayo
naman ang MAWALA

So now i know, it's true
It's easier to give advice to someone
than to yourself.



So here you go ..
Cheer up ! Let's all Count our Blessings
Your one of my List readers [s?]
Let's do appreciate every single
blessing come into our lives ..

I bet .. yeah I bet !
Blessings will Top that Negativity, Pain, Burden we had
uhhhhkii ?!




dun wuri i will spruce up
this blog.. as much as possible no dramas allowed
though I'm not sorry for posting my Emo-ments
we all go/went to this stage ..
Thanks alot ^^


smooches Jan

And i choose to be happy

Me and Twin [angel] watched a movie
I bet you already knew this it's "And i Love you so"
yannno it's damn cheesy ..





It's not that heavy drama as you expect ,
but you can feel the Pain ..
awkei here we go again , Feel the Pain !!

Where in Earth you can't feel the Pain ?
tell me !!!!! for god sake !


It's not movie review but this line did the Blast

Suffering is an Option ,
Happiness is a Choice ..

Nyao ! few months ago
i asked myself why did i choose
Happiness is a choice ?
part of it is true but we all know
Happiness depends on the people who really mean to us
how can you even smile when you know there is someone's grieving
how can you be happy when you know there is someone been Hurt ?
Poor ENGRISH !! pls do tell me so i can re phrase/learn from it uhhkii ?




Life is Unfair .. that's what everybody said .....





Don't worry I'm ohhkei
just give me a bunch of Siomai haha
Srsly Siomai will do !

Acceptance is the Only way to Move On

So here i am
starting from Scratch
but i am pretty sure sooner or later
I'll be ok .

Suffering is an Option ,
Happiness is a Choice ..





and i
Choose to be Happy

Those Previous post was
emotional.. so don't ever ever dare to
Scroll it down or else !!!!!!
I'm serious don't read any single part of it
nahh kidding,




Tomorrow is another day ,
and tomorrow is Holiday !!!!!
hooooorrraaay ! For the 3rd time
I'll be updating renew and refresh this Blog . :)
expect more mushy
Funny and Exciting entry
uhhh noo this blog still not a Child Friendly
zone suri ! hehe what am i saying ?
only one.. two.. three.. Only One Read this hoho
thanks to you !




*There's a lot of gram error
pls do correct and say it to me
ok ba? haha

sorry

Sobrang dame na ngyayare ngayon
Hindi ko na maintindihan sa Sobrang dame
Ayoko ng Mag salita ayoko ng mag react


Masaya ka ngayon, Biglang kukunin sayo
at babalik sa katotohan na Hindi ka Ok.


Nakaka pagod ... Nakaka sawa na
Mama papa ate miss ko na kayo
sana andito kayo ayoko masanay ng laging ganto
ang sakit na .. ang sakit sakit
ayoko masanay na Ok lang na umiiyak na masanay na
nasasaktan


Hindi ko alam kung san ako nag kamali
bakit biglang gumulo ? hindi ko na alam kung
san ako lulugar


hindi ako Ok. hindi na ko masaya.
hindi na katulad ng dati ..
baket ganto ?




*wag ka mag alala
hindi pa ko suicidal malayooooooo at malabo mang yare yun





Pero hindi ko na kaya yung pain
Kahit alam ko na pag katapos nito mas
magiging better person ako .. Hindi ko alam kung
san mag sisimula .. May problema ba talaga o
Pinoproblema ko lang ..?





Mama ate .. sana andito kayo
Kailangan ko kayo, mama miss na kita
sana kaya ko sabihin yung problema ko
sana kaya ko .. pero alam ko ako rin naman
may kasalanan ..
Ma kung andito ka alam ko naman maiintindihan mo ko
Ma sana kayakap kita kailangan ka ng baby mo




Ate sana kasama kita alam ko maiintindihan
mo ko, alam ko ikaw yung unang unang mag
papatahan saken . kaya ko naman sabihin sayo
kahit malayo tayo , kaya lang alam ko
maaksaya ko lang oras mo sa mga gantong bagay
sana katulad parin ng date na ako yung priority mo
ate miss ko na yung date .. kahit anung problema alam
ko makikinig ka . ate hindi ko na alam kung pano
mawawala yung sama ng loob ko
ate kailangan kita , kahit alam ko na ang korni ng problema
ko :) sana kaya parin naten mabalik yung date
ate miss na miss na kita kailangan ka ng kapatid mo







Bullshit !

MY FINAL FANTASY

LAST FRIDAY I JUST GOT A NEWS

WHICH ONE YOU WANT TO KNOW FIRST ..

The Bad or Good

HMMM .. uHKKEEII GOOD CHOICE

MY FIRST LOVE/ NOW HE'S MY EX BOY FRIEND SAYS ;

" SANA PALA HINDI KO NALANG MINAHAL SI JAN"


WHAT GOOD NEWS IS
- MINAHAL NYA PALA TALAGA AKO , SALAMAT SA DYOS


WHAT BAD ABOUT IT ?

- WALANG KASING SAKIT YUNG PAPANTAY
SA ILANG SIMPLENG SALITANG YON.

WERE ALMOST 4 MONTHS SEPARATED
I CUT ALL THOSE POSSIBLE COMMUNICATION
MALAMANG SAWANG SAWA KANA SA STORYA NA TO
PANO PA KO ?

4 MONTHS NA KAMENG WALA PERO
THE PAINS STILL LIVES ON , NADADAGDAGAN PA
HINDI KO ALAM KUNG BAKET HINDI KO MAKUHANG
MAGALIT SA KANYA , KAHIT ANG SAKIT SAKIT NA NG PAKIRAMDAM KO
AT NGAYON KO LANG NAKUHA YUNG SAGOT

WE/I ALMOST HAD ALL THE HAPPIEST MEMORIES
IT'S MY DAMN FIRST TIME TO FALL INLOVE
I DO REALLY FELT THE MAGIC ..
I DO FELT LOVING SOMEONE WITHOUT EXPECTING IN RETURN
I ONCE FELT TO BE HAPPY,NA YUNG MGA ARAW NA NAGING MASAYA AKO SAKANYA YUN YUNG MGA ARAW NA WALA MAKAKAPALIT NG ANUMANG HALAGA
I ONCE FELT TO NEEDED AND LOVED .

THAT'S WHY I DON'T FEEL ANY ANGER TOWARDS HIM
THOUGH I EXPERIENCED THE WORST HE BRING OUT MY BEST
BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I DO ALWAYS PRAY TO PAPA GOD
NA MAHANAP NYA NA YUNG BABAENG MAG PAPASAYA SAKANYA
SANA MAPATAWAD NYA KO SA MGA KASALANAN NAGAWA KO
AND I STILL SAY THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO
LOVE AND TO BE LOVED ..


HINDI KO LANG INEXPECT NA SASABIHIN NYA YON ..
MARAMI NG PAIN YUNG NGYARE SAMEN PERO
ETO YUNG PINAKA MASAKET SA LAHAT ..
"SANA HINDI KO NALANG PALA MINAHAL SI JAN"

Bullshit! it never cross to my mind to
say that, I'd never regret i loved and knew you
i am really in shock that turns to emotional breakdown
until now, every time i remember those words i couldn't
help but cry and reminisce all our happiest days we had


MUSH :

Hindi ko na alam kung ano pa sasabihin ko sayo
Tama na , ang sakit sakit na kase.. hindi ko alam
kung san ba mas masakit yung sana ba hindi mo nalang
ako minahal o yung isipin mo na ako yung hindrance
sa pag mamahal mo sa kaibigan ko ..
Sana nga Hindi mo nalang ako minahal
Sana hindi ko nalang naramdaman na minahal mo ko ,
baka sakaling ako pa yung may mali kung bakit hindi mo ko
minahal .. pero mush naramdaman ko kase eh ..
kung ganto lang yung mangyayare sana hindi nalang talaga .. Sobrang daming
Pain na na gusto ko ng magmakawa at lumuhod na wag ng malaman
pa yun , Gusto ko paniwalain yung sarili ko
na Minahal talaga natin ang isa't isa gusto ko parin
maniwala na Minahal mo talaga ko, na naging totoo
tayo sa isa't isa .. pero sa mga Ngyayare Mas lalo ko lang kase nararamdaman na Lie lng
yung relationship naten .. yun nga siguro yung masakit sa lahat
Our relationship was all made of fun ...

though it was all made of Lies .. I'd still THANK god DUMATING KA SA BUHAY KO
Thank god he once let me to feel the happiness respect and the magic of love .










~
I felt sorry for myself for posting this crap again









JAN ..

STUDY HARD PARTY HARDER

Ungas! wala ako dyan hahah !

Last Saturday we had our Acquaintance party at School
it's Exclusive for IHM and Tourism students only

It's damn FUN ! I never thought i could dance like shit
It's not wild as you see on the bar ohhhhkeii !
but woo ! that Pharteyyy is sooooo DROOL !
we arrived at 6:00 *i think* and when we step on the

dance floor yiikees it's SUWiiiT dance darn it ! so we just
stay at the table but when the Music turns to Hip we all

hit the dance floor and Groove like there's no other day come ,

Let the photos do the talking

angel,mee^^.donna.tin.janine - going to tagaytay ^^ hoooray!
some bar at tagaytay ^^

YSaY,Angel,Ly ann,MEEE ^^

AtTagaytay wuth my TWIN !! love her so much

Jancaholic FT. Petecrack

shirt-penshoppe short-Fsquare thights-sm dept. store boots-Thrift ^^ top hat/accesories-SMdept.store tie-Folded and hung Jancaholic and Bevs Geisha daw haha

• As you can see, there's a lot of Pictures .. thanks to Ysayand angel , Their are my official Photogs .. *kaway to angel she's reading my entry haha
  
• HooooooRrrrrAaAaYYyY ! for me i Saw my Crush even if he's not IHM student, he's just there to see me !! *in my world haha ! nahh
• It's our Chumxarii!!! me and my best friend MAE *chumz was celebrate also this day our 3rd anniversarry ^^It's not too late to greet us !
  
• my friend jhon brought his car and we went to tagaytay plus win !! i didn't spend any money for this hop . hahah
  
• jhon and some of my peers left me at the bar, and i choose to stay with my chums with her classmates , and we walked almost a hundred meters oh ghad!! that was a painful but Fun experience ^^

• ohhhhh phullleeezee let this day happened again ^^
  

And It Ends at Tagaytay *don't know what bar is it
but it's near at starbucks .. ,
YEY !! for August 15 !!

THIS DAY IS A WIN !!!!!

A LETTER TO MY EX BOYFRIEND ['S] EX GIRL FRIEND

For this past days I've been receiving Hate mails
ohhhhhh myyyyyyy ! as far as i know
i am one of the most loving and Understanding friend
*ask my friends, or be my friend to know *wink

I just got a message I just got a
message i wonder who it's from ... Ohhhh !
It's a Message from my EX boyfriend's Ex girlfriend
how Ironic Isn't it ?

As much as possible I don't want to post this cause It'll be ruining my pages ..



But i can't take this, I'm a Monster in their own world *moi EX and Bf's Ex-GF*
since we broke up i cut all the possible communication,



Wednesday morning i log into my old account
just because my friend said this cute little MUMU[my Ex boy friend's ex]
is looking for me .. I wonder why ? we've never been friends

Just a Quick Recap

and just because all of you know *i guess
i had a Cyber-relationship which is my Ex boy friend
all throughout we've been together this MuMu[ex Bf's ex]
always there to crash our relationship , i don't mind her
since she's only 14 yrs old , ghad ! sooo makati na !
and the day comes My bitter sweet relationship with my boy friend finally
ended. but still this MuMu did'nt stop , she's stalking me and she's there to pissed me of Niao! hope she enjoy disappointments

Here's a short Coversation :

§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: jan pwede b mg pM???
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: gs2 ku lng sbhin n nd tlga aq ung ng message sa fs mo nuon!
^^JANN: nahh .. ok lang
let's just move on . it's been a decades na ata ..
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: eh glit n glit k kc skin eh.. sa mess m.. pti ung kaibigan u
^^JANN : HUWAAAT ! haha ..
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: ala un lng gs2 ku sbhn n nd aq un. ng mess..
^^JANN: with Celine , hindi ko control kung ano man sabihin nya sainyo ..
she has her own view and she's educated enough to know what's right or not
ohhhhkkkeei
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: .. gs2 kita add sa fs pwede buh?
^^JANN: ghad! ndi nako nagamit ng FS eh
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: ok ok sbhn m controlin nya srili nya. kc nd nmn xa ksli eh.
^^JANN: first thing first , kasali na sya since gustong ligawan sya ni reinier ata sweet revenge nyaha!
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: bwahaha.. lnghya tlga un c reinier
^^JANN: well anyway anung msg ba un ?
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: ewn ko npkhaba ng cnbi mo.. my mnga numero pnga ung cnbi m
^^JANN: un ba , that's just a blessing and good bye ayoko na kase ng any communication sakanya at sayo
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: ng kita nb kayu. hanggang ngayun glit kpb? haha
^^JANN: never naman ako nagalit sakanya, gustong gusto ko nga magalit haha
wala naman syang kasalanan ..
^^JANN: basta mabuhay lang ako na wala kayo ok na ko
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: hahaha.. awtch hah.. ayus k rn tumira eh nuh.
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: tnung ko kung ng kita nb kau
^^JANN: nahh .. wag nang paikot ikot let's just straight to the point
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: un n nga lng tnung ko. nd mupa masagot
^^JANN: ohhh sorry what's that again ?
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: taray %%.. haha sbi ko kung ng kita nb kau.
^^JANN: nope we never did ..
§hårm§'z* ~ Löv§ U: ahh okay



This is only Reaction i had .....
HUUUUUUWAAATTT ! A PACHYDERM !


To my Dearest Ex Boy Freind


c'mmon honnney I don't care if you still have a communication
with my friends , I SRSLY don't mind if you Court her(a very close friend of mine) ..
just Think ! Our Story has been ended and were starting a new
chapter of our Lives, so Phuuuullleeezzze ! don't ever think again
I was the one who's putting the Pessimistic attitude
to her .. She Has her own Decission what's good or bad to her
Unfortunately honney .. You are Bad to her health, You can't blame her
what she sees to our relationship might happen to the both of you



To my Dearest Ex Boy Friend's Ex Girl Friend

c'mmon honney it's been a months and were living our own
lives now , Haven't you heard Dignity? Pride? look it up
pleaaaseeee ... i don't want to make any senseless fight
especially when it comes to not worth it boys , how cheap is that ?
Your only 14 , still a baby you should play *not a fire *
enjoy your childhood grow up Enjoy , I Know you still Love
"our EX" *evil.laugh* but Phullllleeeezeee don't evolve yourself
to this kind of Situation. were his EX .. Be it !



~

uhhhkeeeii ?! Stop Bugging me You and Your ex
or Else I'll squeeeeeeeeezzzee your Head till it drop
Grab and stretch your Ears till you didn't realize
that HELLLLLLLOOO ! WERE LIVING OUR DIFFERENT LIVES.......
NOW STOP BUGGING ME !





as you can see/read I'm speaking/typing Straight to the Point
I hope and I pray , This will be the Last Conversation
so help me God ..






smooches Jan

GG NA SIR !

In St. Jude we gave importance to our teachers, i made an entry to one of my most FAB. teacher
who is it ? READ!

HOWKEI ... I'm quite ecstatic and energized right now
since i saw my crush *hides* for just a second urgh!

it should be posted last week but since
my connection was down *thanks to smart bro
i can't surf anything and i'm not comfortable to write
or post if i'm not using my old aged suppah computahh !


Last week *i guess i had a chance *a chance?
to talk to my Third most Favorite Mentors
he's one of the coooooolest teachers I've ever met
SIR JOSE RAOUL GARCIA
*ehem ! By the way he's reading my blog *kaway to Sir ! *
he's teaching .. uhmmm .. something about computers
web developments *uh if i'm not mistaken?
troubleshooting and meni murr !

I vividly remember the time when we finally met
it's uhh.. *suddenly forgot
I'm a junior high transfer student who was more
eager to took Computer class rather than math
*shhh .. it took 2 weeks *i guess since we transfer student
met our ... very COOL teacher in computer ..
*kaway to sir! :D


As far as i remembered i was Late *kelan ba hindi?
and since I'm a transfer student i'm wearing civilian clothes *which is soo drool
My statement shirt catch sir jeff attention ..
don't ask. i forgot what shirt is it.uhhki !
and since then i/we enjoyed listening to him it seems like a friend is teaching you
he really had
a good sense of humor .


I am really bow down the way he teach us
he know what he teach , he know how to catch our
attention , *computer is not so boring subject well of course
were living in the modernized world ..
BUT ! memorizing HTML, codes and whutever
Hurt some of my classmate .. hehe yeah ! not much of me
i find computer subject much more interesting than the others
so now i wonder why i didn't take up Info. tech nor computer related
courses .. ;___;

Sir jeff is very close to us especially our *ehem section
St. Joseph *screeeeeeeaaaaaam !
alot of teachers was embarrassed annoyed to our section
some says were the BLACK sheep SECTION
*innocent. but a lot of them we st. joseph brought
the most joy to them? or him/her
and sir GARCIA is one of the teachers who was not
tired to keep his patience though *st. joseph
our section was soo love by him .. Marami samin ang
iniisip nalang eh "si Sir nalang ang hindi nagagalit satin"
but some of us "the not insensitive" know we sometimes
pissed him off . But as he said on our convo.. "syempre dapat
hapi hapi parin in the end of the day "


Sir Jeff was also the first teacher who is really
love giving trivia .. at dahil dun nung third year kame
marami ako nakita na TRIVIA about their subjects are posted
on their Bullettins ..pero hindi lang pala TRIVIA about subjects meron
si sir dahil kahit ang NEWEST at HOTTEST intriga sa School eh alam nya
daig pa ang papparazzi .. Magugulat ka nalang at alam nya na
break na ang Crush mo at ang GF nya ..




Last week we had a CONVO . *conversation
we were bit emotional , it seems he really misses us
and me yours truly, misses SIR jeff too HE'S LIKE A BROTHHA !*brother* to us and the way
i live the high school life, i miss every part of St. Jude
from the faculty down to the staff .. Ngek!
haha ! but it is sincerely true ! Pramis !

CLICK THE PHOTOS TO ENLARGED *WENK!

"bihira Kc ako mapamahal sa studyante nag kataon kayo pa"

St. JOSEPH !!! isn't that sweet ?
*tears*
we badly misses you too SIR !
kung mababasa lang nila yung sinabe nyo baka
maiyak kame sa saya ..
Sir Jeff is one of the teachers who believed in our talent
he always cheer us up ! I'll assure you no matter bad the day
he had you can see him smiling and goofing around with other
teachers especially Mr. Bocalan whatta tandem ! Kabog ang perya !
isama pa si sir marvin kumpleto na araw mo makita mo lang sila hahaha !
;] Gahd !

TIP para maging Close kay sir

• Hindi mahirap maka Close si Sir kahit sino kina kausap nyan , minsan pag walang klase [?] eh iikutin nya ang buong gilid ng room maka usap ka lang , Syempre About sa TRIVIA .. latest Break ups.. Newest Couple .. sabay kilig haha !

• Madaling kausap si sir, Ngumite ka lang close na kayo hehehe ! mapa assignments projects or problema mo sa ka relasyon mo may advice yan ..
  

• Masayahin si sir , Kung gusto mo talaga maging suppah close mag baon ka ng JOKE o TRIVIA para buong Klase nakaka relate at makikitawa kung mapahiya ka ..haha ! kidding aside madaling mapatawa si SIR .. hindi kapa Nag sa salita naka ngite na yan .. hindi ka luge haha !
  

• Techie boy si SIR! lahat ng TRENDS at Latest may alam sya .. kaya kung gusto mo maka usap madali lang Download mo ang Latest ViRUs tapos mag tanong ka .. haha ! [kurni] pero kung may problema ka talaga sa supppah Computttah mo madaling lapitan si sir .. student discount,

• Sa bawat Event sa School , Asahan mo si sir Jeff ang Photographer ! kaya minsa lang mag pa picture sa kanya .. kung wala syang trabaho GRAB THE OPPORTUNITY ! minsan lang yun ..

• Hindi lang teacher si SIR . para na syang TROPA samen .. [at kahit ibang teachers naman sa SJ ganun ] pero madalas mo sya makikita sa Canteen Comp Lab at syempre sa ADMIN
  kasama si sir shooh at espadero ;]

• Hindi mahirap maka sundo si Sir , Basta Judean ka Close na kayo ! ... d'ba ! d'ba! sir !
  

yey ! did you read it ?
i'll be changing my url to JANCAHOLIC
i've been thinking it for about a weeks
sir jeff help me which to choose Jan'xshop or JANCAHAOLIC
jan'xshop is very close name to me i've been using this for
a year .. but i guess JANCAHOLIC WILL DO THE BLAST !!!
(i'll change my theme too*this photograph is proof* .. so it will be a dead weekdays to me
roar!)

• NO FAVORITISM , EVEN IT SHOWED HAHA ! ALL TEACHERS AT ST. JUDE ARE SOO DROOL ! AND PROFESSIONAL ENOUGH .
  

• KISS ASS ? NIAHA ! DONE WITH IT ! FRESHMAN BS-IHM STUDENT HERE PLOX!

• SORRY FOR THE POOR WATERMARKS .. I'M NO GOOD AT IT *hides*

smooches Jancaholic