MY FINAL FANTASY

LAST FRIDAY I JUST GOT A NEWS

WHICH ONE YOU WANT TO KNOW FIRST ..

The Bad or Good

HMMM .. uHKKEEII GOOD CHOICE

MY FIRST LOVE/ NOW HE'S MY EX BOY FRIEND SAYS ;

" SANA PALA HINDI KO NALANG MINAHAL SI JAN"


WHAT GOOD NEWS IS
- MINAHAL NYA PALA TALAGA AKO , SALAMAT SA DYOS


WHAT BAD ABOUT IT ?

- WALANG KASING SAKIT YUNG PAPANTAY
SA ILANG SIMPLENG SALITANG YON.

WERE ALMOST 4 MONTHS SEPARATED
I CUT ALL THOSE POSSIBLE COMMUNICATION
MALAMANG SAWANG SAWA KANA SA STORYA NA TO
PANO PA KO ?

4 MONTHS NA KAMENG WALA PERO
THE PAINS STILL LIVES ON , NADADAGDAGAN PA
HINDI KO ALAM KUNG BAKET HINDI KO MAKUHANG
MAGALIT SA KANYA , KAHIT ANG SAKIT SAKIT NA NG PAKIRAMDAM KO
AT NGAYON KO LANG NAKUHA YUNG SAGOT

WE/I ALMOST HAD ALL THE HAPPIEST MEMORIES
IT'S MY DAMN FIRST TIME TO FALL INLOVE
I DO REALLY FELT THE MAGIC ..
I DO FELT LOVING SOMEONE WITHOUT EXPECTING IN RETURN
I ONCE FELT TO BE HAPPY,NA YUNG MGA ARAW NA NAGING MASAYA AKO SAKANYA YUN YUNG MGA ARAW NA WALA MAKAKAPALIT NG ANUMANG HALAGA
I ONCE FELT TO NEEDED AND LOVED .

THAT'S WHY I DON'T FEEL ANY ANGER TOWARDS HIM
THOUGH I EXPERIENCED THE WORST HE BRING OUT MY BEST
BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I DO ALWAYS PRAY TO PAPA GOD
NA MAHANAP NYA NA YUNG BABAENG MAG PAPASAYA SAKANYA
SANA MAPATAWAD NYA KO SA MGA KASALANAN NAGAWA KO
AND I STILL SAY THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO
LOVE AND TO BE LOVED ..


HINDI KO LANG INEXPECT NA SASABIHIN NYA YON ..
MARAMI NG PAIN YUNG NGYARE SAMEN PERO
ETO YUNG PINAKA MASAKET SA LAHAT ..
"SANA HINDI KO NALANG PALA MINAHAL SI JAN"

Bullshit! it never cross to my mind to
say that, I'd never regret i loved and knew you
i am really in shock that turns to emotional breakdown
until now, every time i remember those words i couldn't
help but cry and reminisce all our happiest days we had


MUSH :

Hindi ko na alam kung ano pa sasabihin ko sayo
Tama na , ang sakit sakit na kase.. hindi ko alam
kung san ba mas masakit yung sana ba hindi mo nalang
ako minahal o yung isipin mo na ako yung hindrance
sa pag mamahal mo sa kaibigan ko ..
Sana nga Hindi mo nalang ako minahal
Sana hindi ko nalang naramdaman na minahal mo ko ,
baka sakaling ako pa yung may mali kung bakit hindi mo ko
minahal .. pero mush naramdaman ko kase eh ..
kung ganto lang yung mangyayare sana hindi nalang talaga .. Sobrang daming
Pain na na gusto ko ng magmakawa at lumuhod na wag ng malaman
pa yun , Gusto ko paniwalain yung sarili ko
na Minahal talaga natin ang isa't isa gusto ko parin
maniwala na Minahal mo talaga ko, na naging totoo
tayo sa isa't isa .. pero sa mga Ngyayare Mas lalo ko lang kase nararamdaman na Lie lng
yung relationship naten .. yun nga siguro yung masakit sa lahat
Our relationship was all made of fun ...

though it was all made of Lies .. I'd still THANK god DUMATING KA SA BUHAY KO
Thank god he once let me to feel the happiness respect and the magic of love .










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I felt sorry for myself for posting this crap again









JAN ..