He made a good Decission

I might the one who gave the most joy to him
but i can't give the most love he deserve .

Last few months may balita
na kumakalat haha ! . ganto kase yun
July 16 i think that was friday
this "something" was Officially yes, Officially
Out. hay hirap



Being Admire or Adore by someone
is always been a pleasure
he's cute he's kind he's gentleman and he's one of the
girls dreamboy.


He likes me, i like him too
he has a girl friend and ........


Recap: this guy is
my former classmate and still
one of my best guy friend
he likes me even before he had a GF
but he didn't know that i knew what's his feeling for me
He likes this girl at naguguluhan sya kung
liligawan nya ba talaga un.
pake ko naman d'b? but i was one guilty bitch
cause he's distracted of me
*evil laugh* i don't do anything TRUST ME
I'm INNOCENT. :D
so this year i guess i made my good decision ever
since he didn't know i knew everything
i worked things clean and green hehe

I Let him to feel that
this Girl *yeah not me*
is a perfect catch .. i help him
to realized that this girl is the one
who he really loved the most .
*Insert Church song here plus Put halo on my head*

*don't worry this comes from reliable source*

We had a meet-ups as a group
Since everyone is Busy doing nothing ^^
we took the chance
to talked things out..

*sneek* The Untold Feeling has been Revealed
were drunk
but i know and i felt that conversation is not an alcohol talking
i felt happy once again, cause i know after he Officially open it up to me
that will also the closure of everything
we talked a lot, we also shared some secrets
we Cherish everything like it will never happen once again
Cause we know after this Night we woke up
and back to reality .
that Night is Enough , It's my Very first time
to heard him Laugh like shit .. as in
he's a quiet and mysterious type kind of guy
so everything at that Night is a Surprise ..
SETTINGS:
WE WERE JUST TALKING
the rain fall so sad .. plus the A VERY SPECIAL LOVE
song playing on my mp4 *i was the one who heard it* ]
sweet revelation .. sweet farewell
After he opened it up i know that will also be the Closure
*nod*


That's so i thought
After 1month *i think*

when we were having our Reunion
i just heard he cried because of me
Naguguluhan na naman sya .
Mahal nya si GF pero Gusto nya ko
Hindi na sya masaya kay GF at ako na ang
Nagpapasaya sakanya .

One of my Closest Friend says "I was the one who Bring out His Best"

urgh. The first thing comes up to my mind
was .. What the hell i did ?
we never talked for a month how could
these thing happened ?


I always feel happy when someone
appreciates me. hindi lang naman siguro
ako pati rin ikaw d'b ?


But this time i felt nothing
i was worried with him
This guy is a good catch. he is really !
I am Attracted with him and that's just it
i don't have any romantic feelings with him
siguro kase yung mga kaibigan ko eh , i pictured
them as a Family to me ..

we talked about that
and he said : Totoo lahat yon
at Pag iisipan ko ng Mabute [pag iisipan kung sino ba talaga same ni Gf ang pipiliin nya]

After he said those things
i suddenly felt sad
Iniisip nya ba na may inaasahan ako after that
Revelation ?

~ Honestly
Never ko inisip na Magiging kame after
he spill the beans
this might sounds freaky but
I'm not a good choice
not because that girl is much prettier than me
Rawr! I might the one who gave the most joy to him
but i can't give the most love he deserve .


And this last Saturday 09/12/09
we met and i admit
I'm slightly hurt , i can't talked to
him as casual as it's need to be
I Can't look to his eyes
cause i know he made his decision
I know and it's Obvious He choose her


gawd ! why i feel like shit?
I'm happy .. Yes i am . Trust me
i'm Lying haha !

kidding aside

whatever his decision is I'll still be here for
you ..








Smooches Jan ^~

Hell Week

Hell week in School >.<

Midterm ! Grrrrr !
Pano na kaya to . Kailangan maipasa
kung hindi . Lagot uuwi ate ko
sa October . And October is releasing of Grades
NYAY ! :(




Food Sanitation-Wednesday 04:00-5:30
Com Arts-Thursday 04:00-5:30
Tourism/ICT/P.E.- Friday
Math/JPL- Sept 24 nyay !






smooches Jann ^~

This photograph is proof

Finally after the long lazy days
i finally finished well not much Sprucing up my Blog
** this is not anymore Happiness Is a Choice *nod*
why ? hmm ..because uhmm

, Life is a matter of Choice, and you can really choose
what makes you happy but there are moments you need to
Suffer your own happiness for the sake of the happiness of others .. oh well your loved ones precisely


Stop with that prologues

This Photograph is Proof .. where did i got that ?
hmm ... honestly i got it from a song, sung by
Taking back Sunday a rock band . There's no related
with my personal beliefs regards to this blog .
i just like it . it sounds very well
and I'm one lazy cat to type all the happenings
pass through my days so in just one shot I can
share my experience clearly to you guys :)
Pictures are evidence , it's a proof



hope it will last :]



i had a lazy day but not much proud of it
it's raining and it's cold plus midterm
is coming Yikees ! but before stu-dying
i will have some pamper time for me myself and I
plus it's an award for being so busy groggy stressed
this last few weeks.


Last Thursday ....

It's a win Thursday
i met a friend at school auditorium he's Archie
we have the same craft [?] it's because
of Japanese invasion
He really love Japanese culture especially Girls i bet !
haha ! I'm not that fanatic as he is
i just love watching cosplay, reading manga, Noodles
Jpop, and their Fashieeeennn
the Good News is he know the song
i've been searching for a month
He's a great Day maker :D



More Exciting Funny Mushy post
to come =}



Good Luck Mid Term
wish me a very good luck ^^






smooches Jancaholic

tourbic

Last August 30-31 we went to Subic
for an Educational Tour

Masaya.Boring.Masaya =]When 112 joins 109 ! Prefek ! ang saya tuloy ng Bus namen
ang Innnnnngggaaayyyy ! Salamat sa Green Utak namen niahaha !

Wala lang hindi ko feel masyado
eto naman kaseng mga teachers grabe
kung makapag describe ng Hotel !
kung ano yung nakikita sa T.V yun yung
pina pa Imagine nila samen ..

Nakooo . Eh ang Luma
parang may moo moo
parang Ospital .


Pero Enjoy sa Ocean Adventure
It's a must to visit that Place
lalo na yung mapanuod yung mga Kyuut na
Dolphine whoa it feels you like to have it on your house
Nyahay as if we have pool to put that on it

The first time i saw them .. i was really mesmerized with their beauty behavior
plus their talent .. ^^ Yikees ! i really want to see more of them :(

Aren't they Cool ? hmmmm

SUBIC IS IN OLONGAPO
AT NAPANSIN KO LANG NA
THERE'S NO PUBLIC TRANSPO
DRIVING AROUND EVEN TAXI
NYAY ! IT'S MY FIRST TIME TO GO TO
THAT PLACE AT YUN LANG NAMAN NAPANSIN KO
PURO COMPANIES , PURO PABRIKA , PRIVATE CARS
AT HALOS MAYAYAMAN AT KANO ANG NAKA TIRA DUN

NO WONDER ALMOST ALL OF THE PEOPLE
IN GAPO ARE BEAUTIFUL .

It's uhmm don't know he's name,Brian,ME!,Lyann,peter,Bebs,Ysay,Angel
at Ocean Park .. Grool !

Leander,Me!,Reggy,angel,Ysay,Neil
Nyahaha ! looks like were on some teaser of Teleserye
Yay! it's actually at the lobby of the hotel hmmm ..

You already knew them evcept of this one little cute Arian ! she's/he's our new
found friend she's also Lycean same degree of course.. She's really really
naughty noisy and witty .. :]

Me at the don't know where is it .. haha I'm trying to scared the fish
Failed. i was the one who was scared of their BIG ! BIG ! eyes

some of my Classmates ^^ at Cabayan ResortTrying to make a bubbles ..

Top:krinkrin? jeans:penshoppe Boots:Thrift shop
scarf:maldita ;]Guess who's with me :)
I'm with chika babe she seems
enjoying the ride ^^ hehehe

smooches Jan

AN EMOOO

JAN WONDER WHY SHE ALWAYS HOOKED UP WITH GUYS WHO LOVE ANIME INVOLVES IN BAND AND ESPECIALLY WHO REALLLLLLLLYYYY LOVE TO HAVE AN EMO-MENTS THEY EASILY GET YOUR ATTENTION BUT WHY DO ALL "IN GENERAL" OF THIS ANIME/vocx/guitarist/ GUYS HAVE THIS emo-ment soo often ....?




WHY ? OH WHY !




I'm not a saint nor their savior of their dark world, I might help them to lighten up their feelings but why they take things soooo Exaggerated ? C'mmon People !



anyway


MINI MONSTER IS BACK AND KICKING !
^_____^ this one made my day ! :}
Mini munstorrr !




Roar !






smooches jan

hooooraaaayyyy !

THERE THIS GIRL WHO REALLY SURPRISED ME ..
as in really !




I RECEIVED THIS MESSAGE FEW MINUTES
BEFORE POSTING THIS ...








OHMYGOOOOODDD!! ANG CUTE MO ..
NYEK ! HEHE .. WELL SYEMPRE
OVERWHELMED MAY NAKAKA APPRECIATE
ESPECIALLY BABAE ANG NAG SABE ..
NO BOLA AT ALL COMPARED TO GUYS DHEEBA ?!

*EVIL.GRIN*


I CLICKED IT BACK TO HOME PROFILE
THEN THADDDAAHH I SAW A BULLETIN
THAT CAUGHT MY ATTENTION
IT WROTE LIKE THIS "COCO JAN:) COCO JAN :)
wee THAT'S MHE ! a message for me !

AND IT SAID
"WEEE SIH CRUSH ANG CUTE :)"



I WAS LIKE ...
UHHH .. OHHHH ...
IS SHE OK ?


I GOT CURIOUS I DIDN'T KNOW
WHO SHE IS ..SO I CLICKED TO SEE HER
PROFILE .. BUT I WAS SURPRISED !!!
SYAKKKKKSSSSS ! OH MHAYYYYYYY GHOOOOOODDDD !
WHAT IS THIS ?!

DID YOU SEE ?! DID YOU ?!
THAT'S ME ! :?
IN MY MOST HAGGARDNESS LOOK
TIP: IF YOU USE MY PIC AS YOUR BACK GROUND
PLEASE DO BROWSE FOR MORE PICS RIGHT IN THAT
PHOTO CORNER .. KAKA GISING KO LANG KAYA NYANNNNN !

NAHH KIDDING :}
HINDI PA YAN .

she made me as one of her Featured Friends
Yikkeees ! :)

PLUS !!!

SHE MADE AN ALBUM WITH ALL MY
SHEEZEE PHOTOS .. AND IT NAMED AS
"SIH CRUSH"


I WAS KINDA THANKFUL.OVERWHELMED AND SCARED ?
I DON'T KNOW WHY HEHE



AND FEW WEEKS AGO ..
SOMEONE USED MY NAME IN HER
FRIENSTER ACCOUNT
I KNOW SHE KNEW WHAT MY NAME IS
I'M PRETTY SURE ABOUT THAT ..
.. MANY OF YOU THINK
"PARA NAMANG IKAW LANG MAY PANGALAN NA GANYAN"
AKO LANG NAMAN ATA ANG MAY PANGALAN NA
MA. JAN LOURD ..
C'MMON
MY NAME IS UNIQUE .. UHMM WEIRD AT THE SAME TIME HEHE
ILANG MONTHS NARIN NAMAN KO NALAMAN YUN
AT FIRST SHE USED CHUMZ/CHUMPOII
NOTE: INDEARMENT NAMEN ANG CHUMZ/CHUMPOII
NG BEST FRIEND KO.
I DID'NT OWN THAT WORD. BUT SHE CONSISTENTLY VIEW
MY PAGE AS WELL AS MY BEST FRIEND'S PAGE
I FORGAVE HER FOR THAT TEEHEE ^^


BUT THIS MONTH LANG NI VIEW NYA ULI AKO
AND THIS TIME SHE TOTALY COUGHT MY ATTENTION
SHE USED MY NAME !
CHUMZ [JAN LOURD]
HOW IRONIC IS THAT .. WHERE IN EARTH DID SHE
KNEW?GET? THAT NAME ?!
DID YOU SEE ? IT'S SPELL THE SAME.. PERFECT !


SO I ASKED HER
ME: WOW ! KAPANGALAN BA KITA ?
GALING NAMAN ,
THEN YUNG CHUMZ .. INDEARMENT NAMEN
YUN NG BEST FRIEND KO .. HEHE
SHE: bkt ayw mu b ?


NYEK !


SINCE I WAS BORN .. I DID'NT HEARD ANY
PERSON WHO LIKE/SAME AS MINE
IT'S ALWAYS JHON LORD, JOHN LORD, LORD JHON.





HMMMM ... SHOULD I BE HAPPY FOR THAT ?
ARE THEY OK ? c'mmon





Yes naman ! may
Fans Club nako hahahaha !







smooches
Ma. Jan Lourd
*wenk!

Hush Blush

You can never .. Uhmm i think you can
Imagine how Happy i am ^__________^
did you see ? did you see ?



Well it's just an ordinary school Tuesday
or so i thought
Morning we had an ordinary class
i am sick i have colds and cough but i still
had an energy to finish those class until ..... WINK!

EYES HERE ! Lyceum Photography Club
Will have a meeting at 4:00 pm J209
ATTENDANCE IS A MUST !!!!


hUWAT !????! NO, I CAN'T
I'M TOO HAGGARD TO FACE MY CRUSH
WELL FOR ALL OF YOU KNOW I JOINED
THAT ORGANIZATION JUST TO SEE MY CRUSH
HEHE ! BUT I DO REALLY WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT
PHOTOGRAPHY :)


HERE'S THE STORY


I'M SUUUUPEER BORED WITH WHAT
THEY DISCUSSING , IT'S ABOUT THE RULES
AND REGULATION ABOUT THE ORG.
SO I DECIDED TO DRAW .. Uhh draw ?
since my crush is seated at the back
i got my pen and paper to start ruining the paper
hehe but Na ahhhh ! it turns good :D really ! yeah maybe for me

1 and a half hours are over
we discuss what we need to be discussed
and it's time to go hooooomeee yee ! It's
my moms birth day so i really need to go home early

But wait !

Our President announce for those
who know how to use Photoshop will
stay .. Hehe since *ehem I'm a Frustrated artist
I stay ... Whoooo Whattaa Pachyderm haha !

It feels good, when you are surrounded with people
who knows your Craft .. Right ? Right !
ehem ! what Craft am i saying ? crap!


Our president ate Dawn
group us to 3.. too bad i'm group 1
and my crush is group 2 .. ;__;
but hey there this guy, he's also a member and
we always have an eye contact when we see
each other. there's watchhhaaa !! nyii !
I do felt he is making an effort just to say any
single word to start a conversation
or am i just assuming ..?

But anyway whatever it is
He's my Groupmate He look at me
and i know he knew what my group no. is
and since he's an officer he voluntarily
went to my group ... Or am i just Assuming ....?
But what about those Eye Contact ?

It's almost 5:30 pm the air condition was need to turn it off
so i use the paper where i drew doodle monsters
just a couple of minutes
This guy .. Uhhhkeii He's IAN !!
Ian borrowed it and he was smiling like
Uhmmm .. Amaze with what i did
hehe ! he's asking alot of questions .. Related to my
Drawing ... huh drawing ? haha !

Our President Gave each group a task
before she gave it , we made a Slogan
I don't know what to wrote .. But Ian got the
slogan through my drawing ... well it's not a drawing
i did wrote it. it's a lyrics of a song it's "Every Little Thing He Does is Magic"
we was just laughing out loud ..

Until Our work/paper is one of the choices
He let me explained it .. and after those shit speech
i saw my crush applauding at me ... What The ?!
I was like .. is this ... is this true ?
Can anyone slap me ?

After the meeting , I let Ian draw at my paper
with name date and signature ahaha !
It just mean that were officially friends
NOTE: Ian is not my Crush huuuukeeii ?!
he's just one of my crush's friend..
After that, i met JC but i prefer to call him Ryuki
he's an anime guy .. I like him maybe we will be a very good friend
hehehe ! While i was walking and turn to my side
i see Ian Ryuki Aaron[uhh i'm not sure with his name]
and my Crush walking Beside me ... !!!!!!


I was like ... *blush* is this true ?
heheheh ! he really look like CoCo Martin
if you know him .. :)



I had a very wonderful Day :)




smooches Jan :)