this post is all about

Another Post again =]

Hope you won't get bored .. and i hope
my Supaahh Old Computer will not
die on me ..


I've been dying here in our house
since I'm alone here, My computer system
is not in good condition all i am doing is
to sleep that turns into headache
Poor me :[


I want to do something Productive
but staying at home sit properly talking to myself
is the best way to do for now .. hehe
So while waiting for miracle, I just realized that
Ohkaayyy.. This is Serious .. so prepare tissue
crumple it and throw it to me after hoho
peace .. this is it


I just realized that After all what happened
and actually It is happening
I've realized that While i am Protecting someone
while i was thinking for his/her feelings
While i was putting a lot of Concern about his/her situation
While i was thinking is all of him/her

There is a lot of people i Left behind
I prioritized someone who did not
care about my feelings
While there is people who Prioritized
me and i just throw it away

I just Learn today that
Life is not Unfair..
Sometimes It was Destined to happened
and Sometimes It was you who are Unfair..


I think I should put my Priority
to those people who love me even at my worst
who love me even they know their not expecting
anything in return.


You Guys Deserve a lot of love =]

Forgive me hihi I will surely
make bawi to you .. all of you
Yay I'm so maarte =]


~
So Cold, Free Hugs anyone ?

Yo Jan


NOTE:
THIS POST SHOULD BE POST LAST NIGHT
BUT UNFORTUNATELY MY COMPUTER DIE ON ME
Grrrrrr ! I'm wishing for a new one
lolsx :D

non sense so don't read

I Miss This .. Yes this ..
sitting on my throne typing my most
mushy things happened to my Life :)

Before Posting this, I read my Previous
Entry .. and i was errr why am i so Emo?
Was that really me? As i Observed i post
a lot of Bad things happened to me .. aw sad..


If your asking why it took ages
since my last post .. It is because of
loads of dramatic scenes happened
well.. Don't worry I'm still stick to my beliefs
is that beliefs? I blog for myself .. Not for Everyone..


what's the Point of this Post ..

I just want to have a quick Recap what
happened this last week ..

Last Monday October 26 2009
Early Morning :

We Went to school to get my Grades
oh..... Shhh.. Don't... Don't dare to ask
how's my grades .. Their Fine :D
hehe
Around 12 noon

We "my high school friends"
went to our old School [St. Jude]
to visit and Eaaaaattt ! rarw ! :D
their celebrating the School Fiesta
so there's a lot of food haha ..

Afternoon up to Night :]

We had our drinking Session at
MJ's House .. It's fun .. we were
enjoying the bonding we missed for about
half year .. sad :{

~
I took the chance to talked
to two of my guy friends ..
and i had one serious talking with them
*I will not post whatever we talked about
cause i forgot all of it haha .. ;] srsly I still protecting someone..

But for you
You made this Decision, don't worry
I'm trying to Understand the Situation
Just remember this.. You made what we are now ;]


For You my friend :]
Thanks for listening to me
Super thanks You deserve a lot of love
you know who you are .. First dance *wink!


Last Thursday October 29

We had an Overnight Swimming Party
at Postema ..
Thanks to Sir Marvin and Sir Garcia
for giving us a lot of FOODS ! =]

It was Fun ... It was really really Fun
but it's hard not to be close to you .. *sigh!


>> NOTE: It is hard not to be close to you
because were living on a same circle of friends


.. This post make non sense
sorry for wasting your Time :]




Yo Jan
is sleepy :[ Good Day guys

A MUST READ :)

howwwkei guys, Yea i know this is a blog an Online Journal/Diary
anything i upload here has a 99.9%
chance that one of you. Yes you my friends!! will read it..

To my dear Reader/Readers (READERS !!TWO OR MORE ARE MANY,RIGHT? RIGHT! )
You guys don't know what kind of face you give to me * @__@ [OW YEAH LIKE THIS ONE]
everytime you say .. "Ui Jan nabasa ko blog mo" "Ui i read ur blog" "Jan ganda ng blog mo" "Nice Blog" JAN PABASA NG BLOG MO :)
I feel the importance the curiosity the Care the love everytime
you read this blog :) This blog Contains alot of Mushy things
and shit loads of my life that's why I'm thankful for the patience you put on this
Especially to the Grammars and Errors .. haha !

well I'm not talking about the Grammars and Errors


I put alot of Sugarcoat on this post so.. Stop!! Let's go STRAIGHT to the POINT

~ Now You know *grin,familiarized on manny "PACMAN" PACQUIAO famous quotes*

Now that you know HOW THANKFUL I AM WITH YOU GUYS, FOR PUTTING SOOOOO MUCCHHH EFFORT
READING MY BLOG .. BUT GUYS PLEASE .. PLEASE I'M BEGGING FOR
THE CONSIDERATION AND THE RESPECT .

If you notice Everytime i post "Sensitive" topic
i always make sure I'm not taking only my side
I make sure that when i post it , The SENSITIVENESS of that
topic is Done. It was settle and Case Close
I'm just protecting the person who was involve with the topic .

So please pay Respect, I'm glad
your interested with my life,
with what happened/happens
to me . It's so great to know that.. :)
but guys be careful in every words you say
There might be people get affected especially in their
Private Life

ok, i hope you got my point :)

P.S- Do confront me , talk to me if you want
CHISMIS :) for the Confirmation , for Clarification and the Likes
VIOLENT REACTION are much entertain hhehe :)

SUPER THANKS FOR THOSE WHO READ THIS
BLOG .. MUCH LOVE FOR YOU GUYS

~YOJAN :)

He made a good Decission

I might the one who gave the most joy to him
but i can't give the most love he deserve .

Last few months may balita
na kumakalat haha ! . ganto kase yun
July 16 i think that was friday
this "something" was Officially yes, Officially
Out. hay hirap



Being Admire or Adore by someone
is always been a pleasure
he's cute he's kind he's gentleman and he's one of the
girls dreamboy.


He likes me, i like him too
he has a girl friend and ........


Recap: this guy is
my former classmate and still
one of my best guy friend
he likes me even before he had a GF
but he didn't know that i knew what's his feeling for me
He likes this girl at naguguluhan sya kung
liligawan nya ba talaga un.
pake ko naman d'b? but i was one guilty bitch
cause he's distracted of me
*evil laugh* i don't do anything TRUST ME
I'm INNOCENT. :D
so this year i guess i made my good decision ever
since he didn't know i knew everything
i worked things clean and green hehe

I Let him to feel that
this Girl *yeah not me*
is a perfect catch .. i help him
to realized that this girl is the one
who he really loved the most .
*Insert Church song here plus Put halo on my head*

*don't worry this comes from reliable source*

We had a meet-ups as a group
Since everyone is Busy doing nothing ^^
we took the chance
to talked things out..

*sneek* The Untold Feeling has been Revealed
were drunk
but i know and i felt that conversation is not an alcohol talking
i felt happy once again, cause i know after he Officially open it up to me
that will also the closure of everything
we talked a lot, we also shared some secrets
we Cherish everything like it will never happen once again
Cause we know after this Night we woke up
and back to reality .
that Night is Enough , It's my Very first time
to heard him Laugh like shit .. as in
he's a quiet and mysterious type kind of guy
so everything at that Night is a Surprise ..
SETTINGS:
WE WERE JUST TALKING
the rain fall so sad .. plus the A VERY SPECIAL LOVE
song playing on my mp4 *i was the one who heard it* ]
sweet revelation .. sweet farewell
After he opened it up i know that will also be the Closure
*nod*


That's so i thought
After 1month *i think*

when we were having our Reunion
i just heard he cried because of me
Naguguluhan na naman sya .
Mahal nya si GF pero Gusto nya ko
Hindi na sya masaya kay GF at ako na ang
Nagpapasaya sakanya .

One of my Closest Friend says "I was the one who Bring out His Best"

urgh. The first thing comes up to my mind
was .. What the hell i did ?
we never talked for a month how could
these thing happened ?


I always feel happy when someone
appreciates me. hindi lang naman siguro
ako pati rin ikaw d'b ?


But this time i felt nothing
i was worried with him
This guy is a good catch. he is really !
I am Attracted with him and that's just it
i don't have any romantic feelings with him
siguro kase yung mga kaibigan ko eh , i pictured
them as a Family to me ..

we talked about that
and he said : Totoo lahat yon
at Pag iisipan ko ng Mabute [pag iisipan kung sino ba talaga same ni Gf ang pipiliin nya]

After he said those things
i suddenly felt sad
Iniisip nya ba na may inaasahan ako after that
Revelation ?

~ Honestly
Never ko inisip na Magiging kame after
he spill the beans
this might sounds freaky but
I'm not a good choice
not because that girl is much prettier than me
Rawr! I might the one who gave the most joy to him
but i can't give the most love he deserve .


And this last Saturday 09/12/09
we met and i admit
I'm slightly hurt , i can't talked to
him as casual as it's need to be
I Can't look to his eyes
cause i know he made his decision
I know and it's Obvious He choose her


gawd ! why i feel like shit?
I'm happy .. Yes i am . Trust me
i'm Lying haha !

kidding aside

whatever his decision is I'll still be here for
you ..








Smooches Jan ^~

Hell Week

Hell week in School >.<

Midterm ! Grrrrr !
Pano na kaya to . Kailangan maipasa
kung hindi . Lagot uuwi ate ko
sa October . And October is releasing of Grades
NYAY ! :(




Food Sanitation-Wednesday 04:00-5:30
Com Arts-Thursday 04:00-5:30
Tourism/ICT/P.E.- Friday
Math/JPL- Sept 24 nyay !






smooches Jann ^~

This photograph is proof

Finally after the long lazy days
i finally finished well not much Sprucing up my Blog
** this is not anymore Happiness Is a Choice *nod*
why ? hmm ..because uhmm

, Life is a matter of Choice, and you can really choose
what makes you happy but there are moments you need to
Suffer your own happiness for the sake of the happiness of others .. oh well your loved ones precisely


Stop with that prologues

This Photograph is Proof .. where did i got that ?
hmm ... honestly i got it from a song, sung by
Taking back Sunday a rock band . There's no related
with my personal beliefs regards to this blog .
i just like it . it sounds very well
and I'm one lazy cat to type all the happenings
pass through my days so in just one shot I can
share my experience clearly to you guys :)
Pictures are evidence , it's a proof



hope it will last :]



i had a lazy day but not much proud of it
it's raining and it's cold plus midterm
is coming Yikees ! but before stu-dying
i will have some pamper time for me myself and I
plus it's an award for being so busy groggy stressed
this last few weeks.


Last Thursday ....

It's a win Thursday
i met a friend at school auditorium he's Archie
we have the same craft [?] it's because
of Japanese invasion
He really love Japanese culture especially Girls i bet !
haha ! I'm not that fanatic as he is
i just love watching cosplay, reading manga, Noodles
Jpop, and their Fashieeeennn
the Good News is he know the song
i've been searching for a month
He's a great Day maker :D



More Exciting Funny Mushy post
to come =}



Good Luck Mid Term
wish me a very good luck ^^






smooches Jancaholic

tourbic

Last August 30-31 we went to Subic
for an Educational Tour

Masaya.Boring.Masaya =]When 112 joins 109 ! Prefek ! ang saya tuloy ng Bus namen
ang Innnnnngggaaayyyy ! Salamat sa Green Utak namen niahaha !

Wala lang hindi ko feel masyado
eto naman kaseng mga teachers grabe
kung makapag describe ng Hotel !
kung ano yung nakikita sa T.V yun yung
pina pa Imagine nila samen ..

Nakooo . Eh ang Luma
parang may moo moo
parang Ospital .


Pero Enjoy sa Ocean Adventure
It's a must to visit that Place
lalo na yung mapanuod yung mga Kyuut na
Dolphine whoa it feels you like to have it on your house
Nyahay as if we have pool to put that on it

The first time i saw them .. i was really mesmerized with their beauty behavior
plus their talent .. ^^ Yikees ! i really want to see more of them :(

Aren't they Cool ? hmmmm

SUBIC IS IN OLONGAPO
AT NAPANSIN KO LANG NA
THERE'S NO PUBLIC TRANSPO
DRIVING AROUND EVEN TAXI
NYAY ! IT'S MY FIRST TIME TO GO TO
THAT PLACE AT YUN LANG NAMAN NAPANSIN KO
PURO COMPANIES , PURO PABRIKA , PRIVATE CARS
AT HALOS MAYAYAMAN AT KANO ANG NAKA TIRA DUN

NO WONDER ALMOST ALL OF THE PEOPLE
IN GAPO ARE BEAUTIFUL .

It's uhmm don't know he's name,Brian,ME!,Lyann,peter,Bebs,Ysay,Angel
at Ocean Park .. Grool !

Leander,Me!,Reggy,angel,Ysay,Neil
Nyahaha ! looks like were on some teaser of Teleserye
Yay! it's actually at the lobby of the hotel hmmm ..

You already knew them evcept of this one little cute Arian ! she's/he's our new
found friend she's also Lycean same degree of course.. She's really really
naughty noisy and witty .. :]

Me at the don't know where is it .. haha I'm trying to scared the fish
Failed. i was the one who was scared of their BIG ! BIG ! eyes

some of my Classmates ^^ at Cabayan ResortTrying to make a bubbles ..

Top:krinkrin? jeans:penshoppe Boots:Thrift shop
scarf:maldita ;]Guess who's with me :)
I'm with chika babe she seems
enjoying the ride ^^ hehehe

smooches Jan